C.

AC and C. are coming on Wednesday or Thursday or something and I really don't want them to. Especially C. AC could stay away as well if it  were up to me. I know that's a mean thing to say but it's the truth. I don't know if I want to see her. I won't ever forgive her for what she did, for what she said because she ripped my hart out with it and it's something I don't want to think about at all and she forced me to admit that what I had assumed but wanted to pretend had never happened was true.

I miss AC. But I'm not sure if I'm ready yet. I've talked to her over the phone a lot but it's something totally different to have to interact with her, especially with her mother around. I don't want her around at all because there's nothing as annoying as thinking about her. I'm serious about it; I just don't have the patience anymore. I don't know when I lost it but I highly doubt that I'll ever get it back.

Speaking of the devil ... Well, not the devil but her spawn.