I'm a mess

[nathalia]

I might be going crazy. Not that it really matters as I already am nuts (in a way, it's in my name).
I would like someone to talk about it, but Ali is not answering her phone and on the other hand I don't really want to talk to anyone about anything because I'm a mess in general and I'm used to it, but right now I'm more of a mess than usually.
It doesn't helpt that I need to study maths as I discovered yesterday that the test was tomorrow, not later this week and finish my fucking biology project. 
And all I really want to do is sit in my room and listen to music (preferable Jimmy Eat World and Fall Out Boy right now) and think and be confused. Maybe there's something to what people have said about me recently and I need to figure it out because it's freaking me out and messing with my head because this is not how things are supposed to be and we all know it.
And God, I'm going to Chile. I'm just really starting to realize it. I'm almost gone and there is still so much to do, so much to figure out (for example how I'm going to take the fucking test tomorrow).