i <3 b

i really wanna hit d over the head with something really big and heavy. the oxford encyclopedia for example.
she has given up on headphones and is watching lost without them and as much as i love lost, i really don't want to listen to it right now.

i've got some writing i am goging to upload later today. it's something i wrote that is quite enjoyable imho and that fits in with misfits and cruel. i had planned to use it in cruel later on.

i was at ali's yesterday. didn't even tell d because i didn't feel like it. i'm kinda totally pissed off at her which isn't too difficult i guess. she gives me every reason to. today, we're gonna wax the floor, so i'll make her life hard with it and i hope for back-up by b.

i didn't watch the new episode of lost yet. I am totally anxious but at the same time i'm thinking, "i don't wanna know what's gonna happen" which really is a paradox.

vanessa gave me bad news yesterday. why did he of all people have to start reading my lj? i will not make everything friends only because most people i know and who read my lj every once in a while don't have an lj and i don't want them to be unable to read what i write. if only i could block some people like junior. omg, i hadn't thought about him. holy shit. i hope he didn't go that far back.

I watched the lost clipshow that was aired before 401 and it wasn't anything special. I don't care about clipshows to be honest. 

b is setting the table. i'll go help him. i think he has gotten over the awkwardness of seeing me in his shirt.

A Case Study

Der Anfang des Buches innerhalb einer Geschichte, angeblich von K.A. Darren geschrieben. Es geht um einen Mann mitte zwanzig, der Karen / Kirana, die auf der Suche nach einem Fabelwesen ist, begegnet, als sein Auto gestohlen wird.

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 Ich geh auf den Feldweg.
Mein Auto, mein Papa und ich gehen auf den Feldweg.
Davor müssen Dani und ich nur den Boden fertig wachsen.
Sie macht sogar richtig was, was mich ehrlich gesagt erstaunt.
Ich geh auf den Feldweg.
Da ich das die ganze Zeit laut wiederhole, ist das während dem Wachsen sehr aufmunternd. Es macht dadurch viel mehr Spaß, weil ich so eine tolle Belohnung bekomme.
Papa hat gesagt, dass es nicht so schlimm ist, wenn ich eine Katastrophe bin, weil ich das nächste Mal dann besser bin. Wir wollen ganz oft zusammen auf den Feldweg gehen, damit ich gut bin und nicht soviele Fahrstunden brauche.
Ich finde es toll, dass er so zuversichtlich ist, obwohl wir beide davon überzeugt sind, dass es ein Chaos sein wird.